the world just feels like a giant pool of mush! i have a headache all the time with profound orthostatic hypotension, anorexia (lack of appetite), insomnia (inability to fall asleep), hypersomnia (sleeping too much), anhedonia (lack of interest), whateveria (feeling like, whatever).....

it's been a week since me last exam and i must admit i am not doing much at all. i think i earned about 350 bucks doing one crazy morning shift and a lovely night shift. 50 episodes of TVB later, i am feeling really bored. like really really bored. anyone looking for any labourer etc..? i offer my expert cleaning skills (specializing in toilet cleaning) for 3 bucks an hour! call me, email me, visit me.

the highlight of my days is seeing shanna come home from work and offering her dinner and abuse. nah only dinner and lovely company really.

also we were totally over-estimating our financial situation especially when purchasing my $1400 ticket for annual leave 2008. account balance<20, wallet=1.25. hahaha. how fun! when tom told me that he had to limit his food to 2 slices of bread/day, i was shocked at his ability to cope (especially because i know of his gianormous insatiable appetite, he eats like 4 times the amount i eat per meal!). now i am living along those lines... good thing we pre-bought rice. i think there's still a handful, enough for 3 more meals or so.. i have spent less this week (maybe 20?) than i have sometimes at one go at priceline (on useFUL absolutely ESSENTIAL beauty products). i spent a good part of my afternoon yesterday scavenging the house for coins left in random handbags, jeans pocket etc. my total taking for the afternoon was a grand $2.20! not bad for 3 hours' work!

waiting for pay-day(s)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (in more ways than one)

anyway we got swindled again at victoria market! gave that girl 20 bucks she said i gave her 10. bloody hell! that was the most expensive pawpaw i have ever purchased in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what else? oh yeah grad dinner's coming up. with no money I can't go get a nice dress. I do have a very crazy top that i bought like 6 years ago but never had the opportunity or guts to wear... mmmm.. in any case i need money because i gotta get a decent pair of party shoes! and eye make-up! and a new party purse! and and and... mmm shanna's getting paid soon... like today or something!

people say i am "unhealthy" cos i have no other interests outside of the category "WORK". and, like a typist who has their hands chopped off... if i lose my job i'd lose everything! it's true. i know it's dangerous like this.. and i'm putting all my eggs into ONE basket.. but hey, at least i have a basket, and it is not a rotten useless stupid basket!!! anyway, knowing that i am likely to be kept very insanely busy for the next 30 years of my life offers great emotional security. oh yeah and i must save up to buy some income protection thingy. which reminds me, time to see the accountant. ka-chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing!

p/s: i hate pimples, they give me pimples (duh).. now u know how bored i really am

Dedicating this song to smallwhite, oli (though u might struggle to read it), moses, mao, mr lu and my lovely sisters
nostalgia! i miss u guys! BFF! (omg i sound like a primary school kiddo!)

歌手：古巨基

曲 编:陈光荣词:周礼茂

下雨天
总挂念从前
球场上那可爱片段
突然又已一年
祈望再会面
旧朋友
就算心永未遥远
但这刻渴望见
即使重聚再短
时光可变
世界可变
人情亦许多都变迁
友共情不变
那种真找不到缺点
你我再次相见
随年和月
身心虽耗损
友共情从难扭转
心内那热暖
仍是纯真未变

so how am i preparing for exams?

besides keeping up to date with the latest season of scrubs (7), i have also revised seasons 1 and 2. well done. good effort.

and i have also started watching ER from its humble beginnings. i realised that i actually learn a lot more medicine/surgery watching ER than scrubs. scrubs is almost useless in terms of learning.

i find it funny though, how in ER, doctors wore protective eye gear in assessing a trauma patient who was not overtly exsanguinating, but failed to do the same during an emergency ruptured abdominal aortic aneurysm repair. 3 out of the 4 who was scrubbed for the operation did not wear glasses or protective eye wear. and the other one person was wearing her normal glasses. tsktsk. fail fail fail!

ok back to more revision... i am reading devitt and barker by the way, not just watching ER. good book. if u stumbled upon my blog or if u have always been a reader, i am gonna let u in to this little secret.. this book really helps exam prep, it puts everything into perspective. not that i do extremely well myself, but it helped me pass semester 9, hopefully it will help me pass my sem12! so yup. a little incentive for u.

another thing i've realised over the week, is that in each hospital, there is a unique team of surgeons. there's bound to be one surgeon who is notoriously snappy and impatient, who would bypass investigative imaging and wheel patients straight for exploratory laparotomies. from open to close in 10 minutes etc. and there is bound to be a guy who is patient and meticulous taking allllllllllllllllll the time in the world to perfect every aspect of patient management. and then all the other surgeons who aren't extreme just lie in the middle, constantly amused by the spectrum of "speed". then of cos there's the kind and gentle surgeon, and the aloof and much feared surgeons who throws retractors at the scrub nurses........ more on that next time!

理应潇洒摆脱， 实际上。。。。
今天花了好久去读有关血癌，狼疮症（？？？？〕和生物化学等。haematology, lupus (and other rhematology things) and biochemistry. 哎呀不懂中文怎么译啦。 读得我一头冒水 （？not even sure if i am using the right words〕。最怕those topics!！

to think that i used to represent my school in national chinese essay competitions! what a joke. and no- i never won a prize. no prizes for guessing why! but yeah i used to be rather decent at chinese. 10 years of disuse has left me with nothing but this..

ok i am gonna just type english becos it is 10000000000000 times faster!
shanna and i are gonna move. seen a few apartments online that we love. now we're just gonna have to get our hands on them, hopefully all goes well, including the timing etc.

been really lazy tho this is prolly the most important time of me life. gee. spending more time eating and surfing the net than doing stuff stuff. been watching the first two seasons of "scrubs" again. i love it! can never get tired of it. shall go recharge myself with two episodes right now before trying to memorize the dermatomes!

oh yeah, shanna made an egg (sunny side up!) and i had it for dinner with plain rice, drizzled with some thick soy sauce, YUM! such a familiar taste. I remember mom used to make us this on sundays when the maid is on leave. good times. and mom's famous fish soup!

anyone thinking of hosting me for december holidays? i dunno if i will really have a holiday! tentatively thinking of visiting sydney, singapore, hong kong, macau, boston, LA... yup all too ambitious and i dont think i would have more than 2 weeks to do all that........!

oh yeah i really learned important stuff from watching royal price alfred! hydatid cysts. bless!

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今天的天气很无常。一整天胸口发闷。千里迢迢的跑去医院， 只发现课被改期了！从来没用中文写blog。写得好幔！近期每天暴饮暴食，一定是因为心情烦燥，迟早出事！妈口米快来救救我！



真的没法象elaine写得诗情画意。太惭愧了。我现在就去面book思过！

真的好幔。晚安

kate beckinsale is really gorgeous
watched "click" on dvd. really nice and moving movie!

hmm whatelse? watched Evan Almighty with Shanna n Ev on saturday night. was hilarious!
Later that night all three of us climbed into my bed and watched a dvd together.. so fun! i sure hope we can make this a weekly ritual!

went to Kelly's farewell party with Tom, with me not knowing anyone other than Tom, Steph, Rosa, jerry and Kelly. was awesome! we gathered round talked all afternoon then barbie in the evening and then we had a bonfire! Brit people are real friendly and altho i have the inclination to feel uncomfortable in such social situations, i felt so at ease today. and i wasn't even sitting with tom!

oh well! back to schoool!
sleep time!
nights everyone! esp mom and dad hello and i miss u!

well about time i made a fresh start anyway.
counting down to exams... 6 weeks!
going to study with a mate in her 45th floor apartment! now.. i mean.. in an hour's time.
hmm.. really need a car for work next year.. but recounting my driving horror stories.. haha.. nobody really trusts me with their cars!

story no. 1: thought the accelerator was the brake. lucky i also forgot to let down the clutch! haha.. what a perfect combination of mistakes! (Chi's car)

story no. 2: nearly pissed my pants on a saturday night 2am driving my cousin's SAAB on the freeway. first time on the freeway and my friend fell asleep. i pleaded to the point of having tears in my eyes for him to get up cos i didnt even dare to change lanes on my own. hahahahahaha. he eventually woke up and we made our way home unscathed. (Peggy's car)

It's really funny cos when pple asks me nowadays "can u drive?", I never know what to say.. I'd eventually say, "well, it is legal for me to drive. But technically, I can't."

erm.. so, Daddy, u said u would get me the new Honda Jazz? Hahaha. when i get on the roads i think everyone ought to stay off!

and recently I been thinking, how much weight i would gain if i in fact, had a car? a lot! I walk on the average an hour a day becos i catch public transport. If i got a car, I'd walk like 10 minutes?! that, compounded by the fact that my ass is growing bigger by the minute, is a cause of concern and I will think very carefully before paying for a car park space at the austin with my pre-tax dollars. If i parked further then at least I'd have to walk to get to my car. but what happens if it rains?! oh, bollocks!

sorry for the really late entry and thanks for the interest!

been really busy, in general. life in general. hardly have time to go online anymore.

but i think it is all gonna change. i am gonna start spending more time at home to study cos exam is in 8 weeks!

anyway.. what's new? where do i even start. since the last entry my life has turned around. i dunno if it's for the better or worse even!

ok this is new. when i occasionally have to run (usually for the tram or bus or train), i feel my upper thighs and bum jiggling! so, i have to 1. try to cut down on my coke intake, 2. exercise more! and ok.. try to eat healthier as well. recently met this doctor, i think he might be quite anorexic. he has like altered body image man.. he is on a strict diet and is rather obsessed with working out, protein shakes and eating carbo-free food. man.. i just find it amusing!

shanna and i cooked a huge pot of veggie soup again. hopefully it will be enough for the whole week. one bowl of soup a day would have almost enough veg for a day. but i think i shd have more protein too. and for breakfast i been having crumpets and english muffins! they are soooooooooo yum. esp if u slap on some butter (but i opt for Flora lite) and eat it immediately when hot! i know they are quite high in carbohydrates but i tend to get really hungry in the mornings just before lunch!

sorry i know this all sounds a bit vague. if u wanna know more u can ask me cos unfortunately i cant really publish the details that revolutionized my life.

more later!

and i am still looking forward to better weather. and summer holidays!

have been so busy this past week. bit unreal. i think the business will only tend to escalate becos..!!

oh well.. on the ward we've been doing intern-ish things, which has been good so far. i mean minus the actual "responsibility" part to it. having some other registrars hurl insults at me etc but then again, i blame myself cos i dunno.

been faced with a few management dilemmas on the ward. shall not discuss them here cos of confidentiality. but yeah.. really "valuable"

but i mean all the paperwork! argh. i did like 3 discharges in 2 days. and checked bloods like once and i ruminate on how i am gonna survive next year. and the next. and the next. and the next....

oh man!! have yet to start studying!!!!!!!!!

count down to exams!

12 weeks!

tif

haha..

spent all weekend doing absolutely nothing! gweat (great)!

hmm first of all i'd like to congratulate mann on his decision to head home and good luck in making a fresh start!

hmm.. what else.. oh yeah received a lot of paperwork/forms etc from employers for next year. i swear i wrote my name in BLOCK about 100 times and my full address about 30. i am not complaining, i'm just saying. i'm still grateful!

what else.. been "hanging" a bit with rosa and steph and they are hilarious!!!!! i was watching tv and rosa was drinking (she had 10 drinks of vodka) becos she wanted to drink at home before heading out and then she proceeded to be sick in the bathroom and fell asleep. and all this was prior to her heading out.

i was totally sober man was just downing doritos+salsa. ok not downing.. i mean binging. oh well i meant snacking really. went to bed well early, like, 12. watched emily rose on dvd and it wasnt that scary. i only screamed like, twice.

oh yeah i think i must be stalked by some weird stalker dude. gotta bring umbrella and deodorant spray and personal alarm out next time.